Tidbits

I am totally hooked on CSI Las Vegas. (Whooooo are you? Who-who, who-who???) It all started when my bro came back from a three-month training program from Japan. He downloaded several episodes of CSI into E----- Gorgeous and voila! I was hooked. I can finish one whole season in two days.

Every time I watch an episode I always feel like my job’s boring in comparison to what they do. Too bad our country doesn’t have enough funding for a state-of-the-art crime lab the folks have over in the land of milk and honey.


Another goes…

Yay! Oh dear! The Single Since Birth Club lost another member last Sunday. Chase, one of my ex-colleagues from the first credit card company in the P.I., took the leap. I was hounding him to death for the details, and was more excited about it than he was. Guys talaga.


A Much Needed Break

YAYYY!!! I'll be hauling my ass to my third home, the city of Merlion, Singapore! I remember Jacob telling me when he first stepped foot on that city. "It's a man-made utopia, Eunice..." I really, really need a break away from Manila, away from work, away from the people I'd like to see blow into smithereens. Heh. And I'll probably shop til I drop, and shake my ass down in Zouk or in Momo. And I'll eat their version of dirty ice cream, tako pachi, taka dog, roti prhata and kaya toast. Oh heaven!


MIKAAAA!!!

Haha!!! My friend Mabelle gave birth to a baby girl last Saturday (or was it Sunday?) at the Asian Hospital. The angel is going to be named Patricia Mikaela. My mum got all sentimental and has been hinting that she'd really like a grandchild soon. My bro and I, after hearing every parinig, immediately roll our eyes and go in the opposite directions. I don't see that happening anytime soon! Hehehe =)

To The Someone Who Almost Dared

I don’t know if it was because of my much-delayed resolve to completely let go of all of our might have beens. I was tired of hearing things which I knew, deep down, wouldn’t happen, and I was tired of the silence. I have been praying for it for such a long time now – the strength, the willingness and the willpower to get over our unfinished business with each other. As I was going home last night, Shmooshy was playing Michelle Branch’s Goodbye To You. The song was very apt, especially the first few lines.

…
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,

…
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved [liked]
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Right then I decided that I should finally, finally, say my peace. I suddenly remembered my conversation with Jacob’s twin brother, Isaac. I told him that I’m irritated with myself because it takes so long for me to let go. It comes then it goes. Nawawala, tapos bumabalik. ‘It’s been three years,’ I sighed. Kainis.

Isaac put his arm around my shoulder, looked at me with his old eyes and wise smile, and said, “Sometimes, dear, phases take that long…when you’re ready, you’ll know.” His twin who was listening concurred with the same wise smile and an uttered, “Amen.”

And it happened two nights ago. I knew I was ready when I know that there was no pang of regret, of wistfulness when I looked back on what happened (or what didn’t happen) between the two of us. There was forgiveness: for him, and more importantly, for myself. Now I say that when I looked back on all the riot of emotions of my saga with him, it was with fondness, and I smiled deeply as I realize how much I learned about myself and him from our chapter.

You can’t make someone love you. All you can do is to let yourself be loved.

I recall a quote given to me by Jacob about youth. Youthfulness is an excuse to do crazy things, the quote said, and one of its examples was to love unfettered. The quote ends with a reminder: USE IT WELL.

I have let go. And now I continue my pilgrimage and move on, lighter.

A Spy's/Stalker's Nightmare

OMG! This is in relation to the entry of Torpeh regarding Friendster. It NOW has the feature of enabling you to know who browsed your page. Gosh. Stalking at its finest! I had 150 people checkout my inanimated picture on my profile page last month, and more than half of them are people I don’t know! Maybe they find inanimate objects attractive, feh. I’m more worried in being labeled as a ‘tsismosa,’ which is not really a problem, since I’ve already proclaimed myself as one. But still. It’s unnerving. Prime example: Torpeh’s reaction to her ex (but, well, Torpeh dear, that was such a strong word. Naughty, naughty girl!!! Peace!).

Although it has its merits as well. Got a number of Baldwins who checked me out (I think seeing sunset pictures makes people go a little fuzzy…hehehe). Some of them I do know: one was a cute guy who was a batchmate in AdMU, another was a friend’s friend, another was a batchmate from Taiwan. Did wonders for my ego!!! Hahaha Ü ang babaw! The girls puzzled me in turn. I didn’t put view profiles anonymously to ON, that’ll take out all the fun. And besides, if people are flattered that I checked out their profiles (‘Uy, pinansin niya ako!’), good for them! I like making people feel good about themselves. It gets pathetic, however, if you draw conclusions based on what your profile page tells you (Uy, maybe she likes me/crush niya ako/she’s not over me yet/she’s stalking me, among other variations). It’s the WEB, for crying out loud. Anyone can be anybody on the web. If it happens, it happens. Get a life, and get over it.

But this is another dilemma: how, o how, please tell me, how do I now check out my crush’s Friendster profile page and his blog without him knowing that I snoop around his page for, oh I don’t know, maybe thrice a week? (He blogs regularly, so there! Torpeh, does the feature include how many times someone visited your page? If it does, I’m dead.) I repeat, I am NOT going to set the view profiles anonymously to ‘on.’ Ahhh I know. Turn it on whenever I check out his page and his blog, then turn it off. Ang tedious! All for the knowledge of what he’s doing. S-T-A-L-K-E-R.

Fine. This entry is such an oxymoron.

Nga pala Torpeh, CBG’s Martin Nievera’s getting married on the 29th.

Any Kind Hearted Souls Out There?

It's available here! The Complete Calvin and Hobbes! I was browsing the titles at Fully Booked, Gateway Mall when I saw the boxed set. Sigh.


The Complete Calvin and Hobbes, Php 6,999

Now I just have to find a way to buy it. Or wait til our Christmas bonuses come. Or pray for a super drop in its price (I wish!).

On food

Menu at Ziggurat:
Enter and enjoy.
Sinful abandon is permitted.