Decisions

Have you ever felt tired of what you're doing? Of putting up with doing things that don't really interest you? Of just being there for the money?

I do. And I'm standing on the edge once again.

Do I jump, walk on the edge or stay safe?

Pihikan Daw Ako?

One of my close friends is getting married on the 25th! I'm so happy for her. We had a despedinner for her last friday at Law's house, and we also celebrated the twins' birthday. Apparently most of them got bitten by the matchmaking bug or was really worried about me because most, if not all, of them were pushing, prodding me to uh "go out and see the boys." Okay.

Two of my friends said that I should check out one of my friend's friends in (ugh) friendster (say that ten times quickly!), because they thought he could be my type. "Matangkad, maputi...feeling ko magugustuhan mo yun," Jayvee quipped. I smart(assed)ly replied, "Okay, kung ma-typan ko, ano next? Wala lang!" Checking out friendster profiles aren't just my thing. It's more Torpeh's thing (she even checks out testimonials and can deduce what happened to your life from there. Creepy. Hehehe).

So anyway, out of curiosity I did check out the guy's page. My expectations were high since it came from two of my guy friends who have very high standards in all kinds of beauty. When I saw the guy's pic/s, my thought was (drumroll please!) jan jan jan jan...

"Is he gay?"

Psssh. I showed it to my friend and told her what my first thought was. She looked at me as if I was crazy and said "Hay nako. That's it girl. Ang pihikan mo sobra. Eh ang cute-cute kaya niyan?!? Go na, go na! Gwapo naman eh..." For the love of all things dear to me, I simply cannot go for someone with that first impression. Yes, maybe I was just too pihikan.

Don't get me wrong. The guy was really cute. But yun nga lang... He was too good-looking. Too clean. Basta yun.

I texted it to my guy friend the next day and he initially thought that he and Jayvee were correct about the guy being my type. I hated to break his heart (yuk how very melodramatic) but I told him what I thought. Apparently, he'd also thought of the same thing about the guy before. A-ha! So I wasn't the only one who thinks the guy is gay. It means, I'm not pihikan! If it was an issue of physical appearance, yes, one could say that I'm pihikan and I'll even wear a placard on my head to proclaim such. But noooo, it was a question of preference. Bwahahahaha. So I'm home free.

My friend said that they guy was a good friend and he can't see any glaring signs to affirm that his friend is ---. But other people say that he is. Sigh. There I was, looking forward in seeing someone who is cute, clean and 100% ruggedly male, but oh well. My friends and I would have to try again. =P